sincerity can move mountains and flood rivers..

a nice and happy family??

a nice and happy family?

i'm not to write about family matters, but this time, circumstances have left me with no choice..

sometimes i wonder about the phrase 'money makes the world go round'.. is it really true, even sometimes to my own family members?

i had a misunderstanding with my brother due to my forgetfulness and not wanting to leave any bad blood amongst any of my family members and me, i tried to resolve the matter amicably, but sad to say, not only did i fail to seek understanding from my brother, i also had an ensuring quarrel with my mum..

it is quite true that i used to be very careful with money, and some may choose to say stingy may be the correct word to use instead, but the reason lies with my mum.. when i was in my younger days, whenever i tried to talk back to my parents (come on, which young kid doesn't talk back to his/her parents?), my mum would threaten to deduct my pocket money.. it was even worse when i made mistakes, my pocket money would not be given to me at all! she never tried sitting beside me and understand why i committed those mistakes.. i remember once when i was caught smoking, i did not have pocket money for 1 month!

but i'm glad to say, with the help of some electives that i took in NTU, and some encouragement from peipei, i finally grew out of my shell, and i'm not as calculative with money as before..

now the ensuring quarrel with my mum.. she asked me why i always try to be so difficult with my brother, and AGAIN, she brings up the issue of why my brother gives her $$ when he's in NS and i never give, instead i take $$ from her (currently my brother is in the SPF serving his NS, and every month, from the allowance that he draws, he gives about $50 - $100 every month to mum).. the impression she gives me is that she believes that filial piety can well be defined by the amount of money one gives.. i do not have any excuses for myself, but would just like to state that my NS allowance back then was not as 'exorbitant' as now.. and ever since i started IA with motorola, i took the initiative to take over my own hp bill, but she never sees that.. when i got my first IA pay check, i treat the whole family to a sumptuous seafood meal at 'no signboard', and again, that goes unnoticed too.. sigh..

i'm preparing myself for a rough time ahead.. will my mum's mindset of forcing her ideas on me change? i don't think so.. it never will..

posted by Linus Chia @ 4:16 PM